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"This year, I'm stepping into enjoyment. The very core of my existence".

-Chief. 


Welcome back to the dom my people. 

Let me start by apologizing for leaving you for too long, it will (not) happen again 🙂. 

Today's blog post is a life update . A lot has changed since the last time I wrote to you. So, I'm basically going to fill you in. 

First things first, I'm aging. Nineteen whole years around the sun and it's been one hell of a ride. I truly believe this year is the one I'll thoroughly enjoy myself. I can't wait to key into that. 

Second things second, (Ha) I'm learning a lot of new things about friendship. I've had to hold back and withdraw from a couple of situations and it is by far one of the most difficult things I have had to do.

However, sometimes we get so comfortable with the idea of being someone's friend that we absolutely ignore when it's not working. That is  unhealthy and extremely toxic. There's more to life than being a glue and trying to stick with people, I know it's hard but please leave situations you know you're not prioritised and you're treated unkindly. 

Third thing,(Okay it's okay) is I currently have a job. Shocked myself and I'm actually pulling this one through 😂. I'm leaving the details for another blog post. 

Finally, I'm in a good place right now.  I'm learning new things about me,things I actually like and choosing myself. For someone who preaches self care and love, I have been a fake babe for a while. I'm in the light now Sha.

April 2021.

Music: I'm currently not listening to anything in particular,which is quite absurd. To be fair I'm singing along to heartbreak anniversary anytime it comes on and listening to credit alerts too. 

Thoughts: I'm thinking happy thoughts. My mind isn't doing too much work because I'm taking a break from overthinking. 

Scenery: I'm writing this at 4am and the view is so beautiful. Lagos really looks beautiful when it's not so chaotic.

Feeling: Feeling quite upset. Someone said very unkind things to me so I'm waiting to process the emotions before I confront them. 

Till next time guys,

Maintaining beauty as usual,

Your Chief.


Comments

  1. UnknownApril 25, 2021 at 3:41 AM

    Who said unkind things to you?
    Let me give them a piece of my mind, just a piece.

    ReplyDelete
  2. UnknownApril 25, 2021 at 3:42 AM

    Love that you're doing things you want to do and that you're happy. More of that!

    ReplyDelete

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